“Are we there yet?”

We would repeatedly whine this from the backseat rows our embarrassingly big blue 15 passenger van (nicknamed the Smurf) to our father. Without fail, his autopilot response to an impatient group of 6 children was, “15 more minutes.” No matter the real time remaining, this was his reliable answer. Well Dad (I know you’re reading…

Lucky #37

Floating on Air The night still young yet the windows already steamy at the Milange dance studio. Underneath glamorous chandeliers, dancers enter a world beyond the ordinary. It’s the dead of winter so underneath many layers they dress to impress, heart’s set upon cutting a rug. This is the smile of a girl feeling an…

Rooted

1/15/19 3 radiation treatments down…17 to go! They are going well. Actually it’s a breeze. I’m glad for something easy! I’m in a clinical study which administers 4 weeks of radiation (instead of 5 weeks- which is the current standard of care.) The study is looking at the benefit of shortening radiation duration to determine…

Staying in the game

12/27 I got a few tattoos today! 5 of them to be exact. Are you surprised? Don’t believe me? No really, I did. Okay, I’m exaggerating a little. Yes, they are tattoos, but nothing fun or artistic. I was tattooed with 5 little dots on my chest and stomach in preparation for radiation- the final…

It’s a gift!

The herceptin infusion I received yesterday was a gift to my future self. I have to make the choice to see it that way. Herceptin shouldn’t make me sick, lose my hair, or destroy my fast growing cells once again because it isn’t a toxic drug. Instead it is supposed to block the Her2 protein…

Celebrating!!!

12/1/18 Cancer Free!!! I have waited a long time to write those words. Well, long for me as I reflect back to that day I found the lump in April. I recognize that my journey has been relatively short compared to some. For those still fighting: stay strong, stay positive. Cancer is an evil so…

The drain of draining drains

11/29/18 No more drains connected to me. Good riddance! Got my drains taken out today!!! I feel like Pinnochio, joyfully singing, “I’ve got no strings on me!” And I’m just so thankful for this because after 2 major surgeries I have felt the burden of being stuck in the trenches, waiting in agony and needing…

A new shade of ugly

Nothing entertaining to say, just a quick update, and I need to limit my typing because of my fingernails. They are separating from the nail bed even more. Typing feels terrible.   I’m home from the hospital and the recent surgery seems to have been a success. Dr. Lai opened me up through the same…

Forward progress

This has to be a quick post. About to have another surgery in a few hours to clean out a relentless infection that landed me in the hospital for 3 days already. My Doc tried strong iv antibiotics over these days but it didn’t do the trick. So I’ve passed the time by walking the…

News flash!!!

DONE! Say this 3 times fast: “A bilateral skin sparing mastectomy with lymph node biopsy with expanders placed for implantation” That’s what was accomplished in the 5 and 1/2 hour surgery. I made it through. Oh the relief. When I woke up I literally could not contain the tears of joy. I requested that my…

I ❤️ NY

I punched my ticket for the NYC marathon long before cancer struck. My oldest daughter had been asking for a long time if we could have a mother/daughter trip to the city for her 13th birthday. So when I surprised myself by qualifying for the NYC marathon (barely meeting the requirements by doing the Chicago…

The Best Therapy!

Hawaii Last time we were in Hawaii it was our 10 year anniversary. I remember it fondly. We approached the islands with appetites for adventure: two crazy kids easily mistaken for honeymooners, staying in hostels, exploring hole in the wall mom and pop restaurants, canoeing, hiking, and jumping off waterfalls. Now, 6 years later, still…